Where I stand now

I guess it has been a long time since my previous post. I guess I’ve just got caught up in all the bustle of life. Kris is overwhelmed by work. I’m looking at possibly going back to work in some form. Abby moved out with her boyfriend (and right now is driving to Texas). Izzy is trying to keep her head above water in 7th grade. Max, well, he’s just Max and we love him.

Lately we’ve had some health issues (Kris and I) that we can’t ignore. We both need to make better choices in regard to our health. While he was in Korea last week I decided to work on the kids. I need them to “buy in” to a healthier lifestyle. I began with vegging on the couch with them.

Huh? How is that adopting a better lifestyle? Well, it was vegging with a purpose: watching documentaries about our food choices. We started with a great doc that I saw about one and a half years ago called, “Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead”. I thought they might like to know why mom enjoys juicing. They appeared to enjoy it.

Next we will watch the doc created by 2 eleven year olds called, “What’s on your plate?” But when Kris returned from Korea the kids wanted to watch “Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead” with him. That was important to all of us and I think he really enjoyed it as well.

So where do we stand? This morning I juiced for everyone and they drank about 8 oz. with their normal breakfast. Max eats his pop tarts. Kris has his yogurt. Izzy fried up some leftover quinoa summer salad (quinoa, bell peppers, onions, and curry seasoning) along with a couple of fried eggs. I’m not asking my family to go on a juice fast. I want them to be healthier by drinking fresh juice (greens, carrots, fruits and ginger). This in the one way I can insure they are getting their nutrients in. Eventually we’ll wean our family off of the pop tarts.

One day at a time!

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Posted by on May 17, 2014 in Uncategorized


And now to dance, dance, Dance it off!

Yesterday, being 12/31/12, I had to go sign up for Jazzercise. My good friend Red gave me a free month of Jazzercise for my birthday way back in March. It was due to expire yesterday. So I put on my most comfy workout clothes and dusted off my jazzercise mat, weights and exer-tube. Off I went to sign up.

I saw a few friends there which made it so much more enjoyable. I am very rusty at it since it has been a couple of years, but it is a bit like riding a bike: you never really forget. A few of the songs were even routines I remembered. I had a lot of fun and sweat poured. It felt great.

Today I went again. I wasn’t as sore as I thought I might be. I wish I could tomorrow, but I have my infusion so that is out of the question. Boo!

I’m still enjoying juice and trying to live life a bit healthier. Kris and I treated ourselves to fitbits. They are a lot like the body bugg, but less obvious, no subscription costs, and they won’t rub against your skin.

Next up is setting some goals, but I want to see some positive changes first. I need to believe I can make a difference in my health.

Blessings to all on the New Year!JAZZERCISE_Cheryl_burke

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Posted by on January 1, 2013 in Uncategorized


The power of juicing has come to our humble home.

I bought my hubby a juicer for Christmas because he has been trying to be more healthy with increased exercise and modifying his diet. I have heard about juicing as a healthy addition to any diet and thought we might want to give it a try. I’ll admit it was a bit of an impulse purchase, but my heart was really in the right place.

He appeared less than thrilled with his gift, but I was over the moon excited to try it out. (I might as well have put “to: me, from: me” on the gift tag!) So once the busy-ness of Christmas morning passed I pulled it out and juiced some apples we had in the kitchen. The kids thought that was tasty. I decided to do some online research into juicing to see what I should be pulverizing.

Quite a few online posts reference this movie “Fat, Sick and Nearly Dead” by Joe Cross. I watched the trailer for the documentary about an Australian man who comes to USA to do a 60 day juice fast/cleanse as he travels across the states. You can watch the entire movie online and I intend to do so. It is very interesting and thought provoking. When hubby announced he was going to the store to get some dinner items I sent him with a laundry list of produce items to pick up. I was going to juice my breakfast!

This morning I juiced grapes, apples, oranges, pineapple, lemon and celery. Very tasty and it does fill you up. I wonder if it is the simple sugars that give me energy and in 30 minutes I will be hungry. The kids loved the fruits and didn’t really care for the celery. Oh well.

I have no intention of going on a juice fast. I want to add it in to my diet and hopefully it will decrease my desire for unhealthy foods. I will keep you posted.

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Posted by on December 27, 2012 in Uncategorized


Jack LaLanne Ultimate Power Juicer

Jack LaLanne Ultimate Power Juicer

Juicing goodness!

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Posted by on December 27, 2012 in Uncategorized


weekend at the beach

First thing you have to know about this weekend is that the weather was unbelievably awesome. That rarely happens in October at the Oregon Coast (especially the North Coast). I even had a bit too much sun and a bit too little sunblock. But anyways, I wanted to let you know that first.

I had purchased a part of this weekend away for moms last spring at our school auction. I didn’t know everyone who would be there and to be honest, I didn’t pay any attention to the date. When it crept up on me I was thinking several times I might cancel. My life is just really cray-cray right now. But in the end I just sucked it up and went.

Here is what I now know about myself:
I can’t do big groups of women on a weekend away. It is too chaotic. I can do three to six families camping or three families sharing a large vacation home, but I can’t do only women in large groups for an entire weekend. Too much of everything and I have a hard time finding a quiet retreat from the chaos.

I won’t fight to get my thoughts across in a large group. It’s not something I care to invest in. If people are so gung ho to talk over me, then I just shut down and walk away. I think it is due to 17 years of being with my husband who normally just listens. I’m not used to fighting to get a word in because I get them ALL in. (I laugh when I realize this truth. He has made me who I am. I love him!)

I am marginally high maintenance so I do have limits to what I can endure. For example: I don’t eat pork. It isn’t that I am allergic or what not, it is simply I have no desire to eat it. That is fairly high maintenance. Or, another example, the fact that I lost both parents fairly young in life and now have MS lends me a different view on the fragility of life and therefore have no time for bullshit drama. You want drama, take it else where. I can’t abide. Also I can’t spar with you over who has the smarter children-better house-better cooking skills-elite grade school for the smarter kids-or other nonsense that is a waste of my energy and time. I will allow you to THINK you have won because it obviously means a great deal to you and I couldn’t care less. Instead, I’ll just be searching for that quiet corner to escape from the chatter and be alone.

I’m now coming to the realization that I need smaller, selective groups that feed me and for shorter periods of time. My kids are growing up too fast I would rather spend time on a sunny beach with them then alone with my thoughts.

And that’s where I am at today.
Thanks for reading.

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Posted by on October 8, 2012 in Uncategorized


Back to the real life

Okay…long time since I last posted. Life gets in the way of stuff like blogging. As much as I try to limit my “online” time, I do see the rewards of blogging.

Our summer had highs and lows, but, thankfully, mostly highs. I’m still trying to figure out how the summer slipped by so fast. Now my kiddos are back in school and I am trying to sort out the post-summer mess left behind from three months of adventures.

Miss Iz is now in 6th grade and Mr. M.E. is in 3rd. As is my normal mode I entered this new school year full of fear. Will Mr. M.E.’s new teacher understand my son’s needs? Will Miss Iz respond well to having her first male teacher and can she handle the pressures of the new school year without too much time in her therapist’s office?

So far Mr. M.E.’s teacher and classroom aide have been fantastic in assessing his needs and making accommodations. I am happy to report this is the first year I won’t be a volunteering in his classroom. He has come so far! Plus, and I’m absolutely gushing about this one, his speech therapist announced he has graduated! Graduated! No word has sounded so sweet to me. : ) Now we just have to work on O.T.

Miss Iz, having changed her name yet again, is loving Mr. G. He has so many great incentive programs that really speak to who Miss Iz is as a person. She has only had one meltdown over homework and organization issues. Not bad. She’ll be back with Dr. Stacey soon for an appointment, but I don’t think we’ll need weekly session like last year.

I’m navigating all my volunteer responsibilities and it is that much easier now that I am not needed in Mr. M.E.’s classroom. I’m on my final year of serving on our school advisory council and I fear this may be the most challenging year of all. With a light at the end of the tunnel shining me through I feel like I will just run like hell towards it and not look back.

Health wise I am doing much better. I had suffered a huge relapse in February, but came through fairly unscathed. I’m on new medication that requires a monthly infusion at St. Vincent Hospital. Thankfully the infusion nurses are some of the nicest people I know so I don’t dread going. I do dread the poke to get the line in me, but it is a small price to pay to remain healthy.

Each day I try to be a better wife, mother, friend, Catholic, and neighbor. Each day is another opportunity to improve. Occassionally I am successful.

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Posted by on September 22, 2012 in Uncategorized


End of 2011

Today is the final day in the year 2011. I’m not sad to see it go. It had a lot of ups and downs (way too many downs for my liking) and I look forward to a fresh start in 2012. But do we ever really get a fresh start?

I look back at all the good things that happened in 2011 and they are completely overshadowed by the lows of losing my dear friend, Sarah Bach, all the strife in our school/parish, and the fact I am parenting Abby again full time and trying to figure out that relationship now that she is 20 and has been out of our home for two years. The worse part is the self-abuse I doled out in the form of a 30 lb weight gain.

It’s no wonder my neurologist put me on an anti-depressant. I wish it was an instant cure for my sadness, but it isn’t. I have to actually DO something to make myself happy once more. I have to learn to accept Sarah’s death all life throws at me as part of a big picture. Ultimately I have to end my sadness myself. I have to find the courage to be better.

And that’s where I stand right now: finding better. 2012 is my fresh start. It is my opportunity to turn the page and begin again. I have to shed the old, down in the dumps me for a shinier, happier me.

So I put that old friend “bodybugg” back on. I’m tracking, I’m moving, I’m trying…and I am taking 2012 one day at a time. I’ve set my short term goals and my long term goal. I will post my results here.

One day at a time sweet Jesus
That’s all I’m askin’ of you
Just give me the strength
To do every day what I have to do
Yesterday’s gone sweet Jesus
And tomorrow may never be mine
Lord, help me today, show me the way
One day at a time

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Posted by on December 31, 2011 in Uncategorized


I miss her

This weekend was very, very difficult. Our community came together to celebrate our Sarah who recently lost her battle with melanoma. Nothing about her rosary or funeral was easy, but it was all necessary. I cried, I laughed, I hugged, and I felt both empty and full at the same time. I miss her so damn much. It tears at my heart. Loving someone and losing them makes you want to run to your bed and throw the covers over your head and grieve in private, but that is not how we do it in our community. We are there for one another. We check in on one another and that caring helps our hearts mend and lets us know that we are loved.

Sarah has now completed her transformation to heaven. She has her wings and she is enjoying her freedom from her body on earth. She is waiting to greet each of us with that big smile and warm hug and kiss on the lips. She loved us ALMOST as much as we love her (wink wink). Sarah taught us a lot of important lessons, but the one I am learning right now is that life is too damn short to be wasted on trivial stuff.

I love you Sarah Elizabeth Schor Bach and I always will.

I wear my orange bracelet still because I am forever your warrior.

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Posted by on June 20, 2011 in Uncategorized


10,000 steps and another big step

I have been wearing my bodybugg for weeks now thinking it will keep me motivated and on track. Yeah, right! You have to use it completely to make it work for you! I don’t log my food consistently and I haven’t hit my activity levels most days. That is…until today!

Tonight, after dinner, I walked to Sarah prayers and back (3 miles round trip) and hit my 10,000 steps. Hooray! Today I didn’t drink a diet coke, eat candy, or indulge in treats. I drank water, ate apples, ate oranges, and scrubbed the bathroom rather than sit and watch tv. I think I watched less than 90 minutes of tv today.

But my big step is coming clean with my Kris. He doesn’t know how depressed I’ve been or unhappy in my physical state of being. I asked him for his support and to not bring treats into the house. I asked him to hold me accountable for any backsliding (and there will be some). But mostly I wanted to make it real with someone so that I couldn’t change my mind. I’ve got to do this. It’s for my family and for myself.

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Posted by on June 17, 2011 in Uncategorized


Ugh…the truth stinks

Yesterday I looked at the lovely photo book my son’s first grade teacher made him and it was lovely. Oh, how he has grown and changed this year. But then I saw the photo that rocked my world: I am fat. I am huge!

I have been able to weather the increasing poundage on my body and convince myself I mask it well, but no longer. The photo shows me what other people see and it ain’t a pretty picture of health.

I told myself last month when my nephew Sean shipped off to Iraq that I would have a five pound per month weightloss goal until he returned safely to US soil. So far, I haven’t met that goal. But today is a new day.

So beginning today, June 16th, I am officially turning over a new leaf. More water. More fresh produce. More movement. More of everything good and healthy. I’ll step away from the fast food, diet sodas, and processed junk. Today is a day of renewal and hope.

I know I have done a number on my body, but it is never too late to make a positive change. Today is that day. Now is that time. No more fooling myself.

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Posted by on June 16, 2011 in Uncategorized